MY STORY
I’m Kirsty Akaal.
As a global speaker on courage, I built a high-performing life of achievement that looked powerful from the outside.
Inside, I was deeply disconnected from myself.
For fifteen years, I stood on stages teaching vulnerability while unable to see my own blind spots.
I thought that because I could speak about shame, I had moved beyond it.
I thought success meant I had finally arrived.
I hadn’t.
When burnout and repressed memories surfaced at 40, the glass wall shattered.
The high-flying life I had built on hustle began to unravel. It wasn’t just burnout. It was the realization that survival had required me to leave parts of myself behind.
I traded stages for silence. Spotlights for ceremony. Spraggon for Akaal.
I stepped away from constant performance and into integration, a sabbatical in Mexico that became an 8-year initiation into the deeper work of healing and embodiment. Into the body. Into truth.
Somatic healing in the mountains. Plant medicine. Breathwork. Regression. Deep Inner Healing & Trauma Informed Studies.
I learned what no stage ever taught me:
Trauma isn’t just what happened to you.
It’s the moment you learned it wasn’t safe to be yourself.
To survive, we learn to perform.
To perform, we put on masks.
We live in our heads because our bodies don’t feel safe.
We call it strength. We call it success.
But we never truly lose who we are. We just forget.
Trauma disconnects.
Healing is reconnection.
Awakening is remembering.
This is the journey. This is the work.
Trauma disconnected us from ourselves, from our bodies, our truth, our essence.
Healing brings us back. We reconnect with what we left behind, the parts we exiled to survive.
And awakening? Awakening is when we remember who we always were.
Not the wounded version. Not the performed version.
The original self. The one who was there before the world told you who to be.
Today, I still speak. I still lead.
But from integration, not performance.
If you´d like to understand my philosophy and methodology, I invite you to explore how I work.
‘My desire to heal had to be greater than my fear’ Kirsty AKAAL
