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For decades I sought it from the outside. Mentors,

For decades I sought it from the outside. Mentors, coaching certifications, one program after another, always looking for someone else to hand me the answers.

Then I had my awakening in Mexico, and everything shifted. I started learning from elders instead, from medicine women, from sisters, from ceremony. And somewhere in that, I found her. The medicine woman who had been in me the whole time.

She didn’t need to be taught. She needed to be trusted. By myself.

kx

#kirstyakaal #sacredfeminine #ancestralmedicine

For years I believed everything had to be taught t

For years I believed everything had to be taught to me from the outside. Some older, wiser authority who had the answers I didn’t.

Then I had my awakening, and I realized I didn’t need another course to hear what was already coming through me. I just needed to trust it.

Where have you been waiting for permission from someone else?

kx

#kirstyakaal #innerauthority #sacredfeminine

In 1996 I wrote five words in a travel diary on a

In 1996 I wrote five words in a travel diary on a train somewhere in Italy. I always love too much too easily.

I was 21. I thought I was writing about a boy.

I found that page again this week, in the middle of archiving thirty years of my journals!! Amazing what I found. And looking back at the girl who wrote it. She had no idea she was describing the pattern she would spend the next two decades living, and then healing.

The pages knew before I did. They always do.

If you have old journals in a box somewhere, they are not clutter. They are a map of you, waiting to be read by the woman who can finally understand it.

All my love, k xo

#oldjournals #innerchild #healingstories #journal #journaling

Sometimes we need a little help to see things for

Sometimes we need a little help to see things for ourselves. Yesterday on a client called my client shared that when she had first jumped on one of the group calls that I was running at the time and we did a regression that she felt nothing. That she recognized that she was so numb and so shut down and feeling nothing terrified her. I’m happy to say that after 6 sessions she is in a completely different place and life is shifting rapidly as she reconnected to herself her truth and her power.

Often clients will tell me that they have been watching me for a while, sitting in the background a little nervous about whether or not they’re ready and how to get started.

If you’re curious about how my sessions work feel free to drop a ❤️ or DM me and let’s talk.

Kx

#heal #awaken #digdeep #selfawareness

You can’t unknow what you now know. There comes a

You can’t unknow what you now know.

There comes a moment when the truth lands.

Not in your mind.

In your body.

For me, once I began remembering, I couldn’t go back to the life I had built around not knowing.

I couldn’t keep abandoning myself to make other people comfortable.

I couldn’t pretend I was fine when I wasn’t.

Truth changes you.

It asks something of you.

Not because it’s easy.

Because once you’ve seen it, living against it becomes far more painful than living with it.

That has been my path.

And maybe it’s yours too?

What do you now know that you can´t unknow...would love to hear.

kx

What no one tells you about childhood trauma is th

What no one tells you about childhood trauma is that it doesn’t always show up looking like trauma.

Sometimes it shows up looking like your greatest strengths.

For years I thought my drive, my independence, my ability to handle everything on my own, was just who I was.

And after being bullied at school, achieving things felt like it gave me value. Importance. A reason to take up space.

So I kept going. More success. More recognition. Fifteen flights a month as a motivational speaker and every single one felt like proof that I was worth something.

What I did not see was that underneath all of it, a little girl had learned something very early.

That she could not rely on anyone. That needing people was not safe. That she had better figure it out herself.

That belief did not stay in childhood.

It followed me into every relationship, every achievement, every moment someone tried to love me and I did not know how to let them in.

The hardest part is that it does not feel like a wound from the inside.

It feels like your personality.

It feels like strength.

And that is exactly why it took me so long to go back and look at where it actually came from.

If you see yourself in this, this is so much of what we work with together.

DM me. Let’s talk. kx

#truthteller #womenwhoheal #childhoodtrauma #innerchildhealing #selfworth

Can I ask you something. When the old feelings co

Can I ask you something.

When the old feelings come back, and they do come back for all of us, what do you do with them?

Because what we do with them now is everything.

I would love to hear your experiences.

For me the hardest part is not the spiral.

It is the moment you catch yourself in it and have to choose what you do next.

That choice used to not exist for me.

Now it does.

That is the work.

#truthteller #womenwhoheal #traumarecovery #innerwork #emotionalhealing

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What do you do when anxiety flairs up? The tape st

What do you do when anxiety flairs up?
The tape starts running...
Maybe you cant sleep...

I notice.
I press pause.
I come home to my center.

I might set an alter that week.
Go into meditation or prayer.
Connect to my higher self, my heart.

I notice the feelings...
Usually triggered by uncertainty.
I remind myself feelings aren´t facts.
It´s not always real, it can be old feelings being activated.

When we are moving forwards, being tested, quantum timeline jumping.
It can be unsettling as f#*k!
Anything new to the ego is scary.
The ego will try to drag you back, under... to doubt yourself.
Back to the past.

So I have a conversation with that part of myself.
I negotiate and debate.
I pull my thoughts to a healthier, loving place.

I notice the thoughts.
I notice they are usually fear based.
I notice my nervous system.
I ask what am I feeling...and where do I feel it in my body?
Maybe I feel unsafe?
Uncertainty, the unknown, does that.

I tell the little parts of me, we have been here before.
We have proof, evidence. Everything will be ok.
New can be fun. Exciting even.
Different can be safe.

I slowly move out of anxiety or fear and towards TRUST.

This doesn´t happen by itself though.

It takes discipline, practice, process, willingness.

Reminding myself, you have been here before.

You´ll be here again...and faster each time I return to my center.

My truth...my trust.

How about you?

kx

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